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this is all totally normal [closed - coop]
Since arriving in this town, Sylvie has gone to a lot of trouble to stay out of people's affairs. At first it had just been giving Coop his space, but the longer she's been here, the more she kind of feels like she doesn't fit, like she needs to give people a wide berth. She doesn't know whether it's because she knows word has gotten around about her previous relationship, or whether it's about how she spent a lot of time shooting and stealing from people recently, or whether she's just being ridiculous, but she hasn't exactly made a lot of friends.
Which is why, despite how bizarre it still is to her, Raleigh means a lot to her. Despite all the nonsense with Coop, Raleigh had gone out of her way to befriend her, even while some people would call them romantic rivals. Raleigh's the kind of person who's just like that, the kind of person who will stop at nothing to make sure anyone and everyone is happy and comfortable and has someone there for them. So, when Sylvie had seen Raleigh boot a young girl onto the street, throwing harsh words at her back, she knows something wrong. She doesn't have to have known Raleigh forever to know that this isn't right, that something's going on, and she has enough experience with magic and this town to know it's probably not just Raleigh having a bad week.
The whole magic thing still sends shivers down her spine. She doesn't like thinking about it, and she definitely doesn't like touching it, but something weird is going on with her friend, so she goes to the only person who will understand everything. Why she can't talk about the potential of magic interference with Raleigh, why she cares in the first place. For once, this isn't about their sordid damn history, so she knocks on Coop's door.
Which is why, despite how bizarre it still is to her, Raleigh means a lot to her. Despite all the nonsense with Coop, Raleigh had gone out of her way to befriend her, even while some people would call them romantic rivals. Raleigh's the kind of person who's just like that, the kind of person who will stop at nothing to make sure anyone and everyone is happy and comfortable and has someone there for them. So, when Sylvie had seen Raleigh boot a young girl onto the street, throwing harsh words at her back, she knows something wrong. She doesn't have to have known Raleigh forever to know that this isn't right, that something's going on, and she has enough experience with magic and this town to know it's probably not just Raleigh having a bad week.
The whole magic thing still sends shivers down her spine. She doesn't like thinking about it, and she definitely doesn't like touching it, but something weird is going on with her friend, so she goes to the only person who will understand everything. Why she can't talk about the potential of magic interference with Raleigh, why she cares in the first place. For once, this isn't about their sordid damn history, so she knocks on Coop's door.
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He's just finishing up ordering a couple pizzas, one for him to polish off and one more Genevieve if she ends up coming home tonight, when there's a knock at the door and the dogs start barking. Rolling his eyes and shushing them both, he crosses through the living room, beer in hand, and opens the door to find someone he definitely wouldn't have expected.
"Sylvie?"
It's not a great greeting, and he narrows his eyes at himself for it.
"Shit. No, I mean, hi. Just didn't expect you, are you-- Is everything okay?"
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"Sorry, I should have called." She still has his number, sitting somewhere in her phone, rarely touched these days. She shakes her head at his question, and bites her lip. It's not really her place, but damned if she's going to just keep quiet about it if something really is wrong. "I just wanted to talk. About Raleigh, actually."
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Again, it's not what he would have expected, but he knits his brow as he steps aside to hold the door open for her. Coop wonders what it is about Raleigh, exactly, that Sylvie wants to discuss, whether it has anything to do with the fact that she's been acting a little strange. He'd shrugged it off, figuring one odd day at Comic Con isn't really enough to call in the cavalry, but he also hasn't seen Raleigh since then. A sudden rush of concern floods through him, and he nods for Sylvie to join him in the living room.
"Can I get you something to drink? There's beer in the fridge, liquor in the cabinets. I've got a couple pizzas coming, too, so if you haven't eaten, y'know... You're welcome to stay for as long as you want."
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"I think something's wrong," she says once she has a beer in hand and is following him into the living room. "She fired a girl today." It seems stupid to start with that, but she knows Coop will get it, that's it so out of character to be concerning.
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"She fired Amber?"
Coop hadn't gotten to know the girl Raleigh had hired very well, but she'd been bright and smart and kind with a big, infectious smile. She'd been a lot like Raleigh, in fact, and Coop can't imagine Raleigh actually firing anyone, much less someone like Amber.
"That's... unusual." To say the least. "Amber would have had to do something insanely fucked up to get Raleigh to do that, do you know what happened?"
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"She seems... Not herself." She doesn't know the words for how Raleigh is right now, but that seems to sum it up well enough.
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"That definitely doesn't sound like her," he agrees, arching a brow as he looks up at her. He and Sylvie may not have their shit together yet, that might never happen, but he's been getting better at letting what had happened between them go. Wasting the opportunity to start anew with her seems like the actual dumbest thing he could possibly do and while that's obviously not priority number one at this particular moment, Coop thinks that working together to figure out what the hell is going on with their friend is a good place to start.
"I saw her at Comic Con," he says, "and she seemed... a little off. She had this Supergirl costume on and yeah, she looked great, but she wasn't just confident about that, she was arrogant, you know?" She'd also been insanely flirtatious that day, but he doesn't really want to get into that with Sylvie, of all people. "I thought maybe she was just, I don't know, embracing the day or something. Any clue what might be going on with her?"
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Various people seem to have the same reports about Raleigh at this stage, and nobody seems to think it's like her. At least she feels justified in that fact, that she wasn't just making something out of nothing. "Je ne sais pas," she starts, shaking her head. She doesn't want to believe it's magic. "Magic, peut être."
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It's selfish and hypocritical, he knows it, and that's why he would never admit it out loud. There's always going to be a part of him that loves Sylvie, no matter how hard he tries to bury it or ignore it; but she'd left him for a reason, and it's not one that he can do much about. The magic is a part of him in the same way his mind, heart, and soul are.
"Magic," he echoes, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "It's not all bad, you know, I swear. This town's got a way of wringing out the worst parts of it. If what's happening with Raleigh does have to do with magic, it's sure as hell an evil kind, but we'll find a way to counter it."
It's not quite the promise he'd like to make but that doesn't make Coop any less certain of what he's said. Joel had carried a demon inside him for years and now, not only is it gone, he's happy with a husband and a baby. Following that logic, there's no way in hell they can't best what's got Raleigh acting like she's been possessed by a Mean Girl.
Coop rises from the couch, setting his beer on the table beside them before reaching out to gently rest his hand on Sylvie's arm.
"Sylvie," he says softly, offering what he hopes is a reassuring smile, "Ne t'inquiète pas. She'll be okay."
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"I know that," she starts. "I've seen some good, too." She's also had her entire memory wiped and had it replaced with something not real since she got here, but she doesn't like to think about that if she can avoid it. "I just thought if anyone would know how to help, it would be you." She doesn't know the extent of his powers, how it works, but she knows he's her best bet.
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The thing is, he can spend the rest of his life resenting Sylvie for leaving, or he can choose to understand why telling her he's a witch the same night he proposes would be enough of a reason to instill some doubts in her. It's not necessarily an easy thing to accept, and she's admitted to him that she'd had experiences with magic before him but they've never really gotten into what those experiences had been. That's mostly because of him, because of his inability to stick around long enough for a chat about why their relationship had really gone south, but he's willing to hear her now, if she's still willing to tell him.
Before he can say anything more, the doorbell rings, and he gives Sylvie a tight smile and one last squeeze of her arm before going to greet who he assumes is the pizza guy. Coop is quick about paying, giving the guy a generous tip to make up for the way the dogs are jumping so eagerly at him because of the smell of the pizzas, and he returns to the living room with two boxes stacked in his arms.
"So I've got a veggie option and a meat lovers' option," he tells her, nodding toward the sliding glass door that leads out to the backyard. "We can keep talking if you want, but I was thinking it'd be nice to sit outside. This whole thing is messing with my head, I need some fresh air."
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He leaves to go and get pizza, and the smell is a welcome distraction when he re-enters the room. Quickly, she gets up to open the door for him so they can head outside. The last time she'd been out here had been interesting to say the least, but she swallows that down. Raleigh, she reminds herself, is why she's here. Maybe they can deal with their own shit later.
"Veggie," she says without needing to think about it. She's not so much a vegetarian as she just prefers less meat in her diet. "I have a question," she starts, "and I need to be clear that I'm asking because I'm... hors de ma profondeur... more than anything else." There are times the French still comes easier for her, where she can't be bothered rooting around in her brain for the correct English words, and she knows that Coop will keep up. He always did. "Is there any way I can protect myself?" She's not asking to protect herself from Coop, she's asking because she's learning that there are people like Nerium, things like whatever might be happening to Raleigh, things like what she went through in the past that she doesn't want to ever happen again. And maybe there's a way for good magic to counteract the bad; she'll never know unless she asks.
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It's familiar and to his surprise, it isn't painful.
Flipping open the lids of the boxes, he lets out a soft sigh as he thinks about the answer to her question. "There are ways," Coop tells her, nodding as he makes eye contact with her again. "But they all require magic. Have you met Joel and Spencer? Married couple, they own that bookstore Crossroads? Anyway, there was this... thing that happened last year, someone broke into their house and-- I don't know, bad shit went down. Point is, Joel put an enchantment on the house so nobody gets in now without a verbal invitation from one of them."
He reaches for a slice of pizza, taking a bite as he leans against the back of the chair, one leg bent at the knee as he stretches out. "I could ask him to do that for you, if you want. He's good at that kind of thing, protection charms and potions and all that. Doesn't mean you'd be invincible but maybe it would help give you some peace of mind." He pauses, shrugging a shoulder as his gaze shifts downward. "Would make me feel a lot better, too, knowing you're a little safer."
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More bad things have happened to people here, she doesn't know why she's surprised anymore. The offer is tempting, but she doesn't know Joel, and even with Coop's endorsement, she doesn't know if she's 100% comfortable with it. "That seems like a lot to ask," she says instead, reaching for her own slice.
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Coop studies her as she eats, though he doesn't have to search very hard to figure out that she's not exactly bouncing off the walls with eagerness to go knock on Joel's door for the kind of help he's talking about here. The magic still freaks her out, whether it's not all bad or not. What Coop wants her to see is that it's not all as black and white as it might seem, which he's sure she gets conceptually, but she needs to see it in action to truly understand it.
Supposed 'good' witches have been known to go dark side, to fall victim to greed or fear or love or whatever it is that keeps someone under the influence of that kind of power. Likewise, 'bad' witches can cast decidedly good spells, depending on the reason. Most of them wouldn't do it unless it benefit them, but Coop doesn't see that too often here. Siren Cove gets all the nutbags, apparently, but at least it makes things slightly easier when it comes to predicting who's causing half the shit.
"It's your decision," he continues, shrugging. "I'm not going to force you to go see him. But he's a good guy, just had a newborn, and he'd do anything to protect the people he loves. Something we can both relate to, I think, isn't it?" He pauses, looking down at his suddenly very interesting slice of pizza before continuing. "I mean, I could go with you to see him. If you wanted. If it freaks you out."
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Talking about protecting people sets her mind back to what she came here for, and she frowns. "We should be protecting Raleigh." She doesn't know what's going on with her, but whatever it is, somebody needs to help her. Talk to her. It wouldn't feel right coming from Sylvie, who barely knows her. Sending Coop to Raleigh is not something she thought she would ever willingly do, and maybe it twinges at her a little, but her feelings don't matter in this.
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He lowers his eyes when she mentions Raleigh again, leaning his weight back on one palm as he tosses his half-eaten slice of pizza back in the box, his appetite briefly lost. "Problem is, I don't know what kind of protection she really needs. And the last time I talked to her, it didn't really end well." It'd ended with them screaming at each other to fuck off, which Coop can't really recall happening with any of his closest friends, and it still makes him cringe to remember it.
Admittedly, he could have told her sooner that they might be better off not going on the date she'd asked him on after all but after so many weeks then months had passed, it'd seemed to have fallen off both their radars. He'd had no idea she'd been harboring such negative feelings toward him this whole time.
"I mean, it obviously won't stop me from trying to help. I can think of a bunch of people off the top of my head who'd want to help set her right if she really does have some magical whammy on her, I just... I don't know. The things she said weren't like her but they still felt like they came from a real place. It was like when people turn into pissy drunks and just say whatever comes to mind."
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"Okay. Well, maybe it isn't magic." After all, if Raleigh and Coop have friends like Joel, it would stand to reason that Raleigh is already somewhat magically protected, right? "Maybe I... réagi de manière excessive." She just wants her friend to be okay. She's hoping she sorts out whatever is going on with her soon, particularly if it's causing problems with her friends.
She almost doesn't want to ask, but she also kind of does. "Why didn't it end well?"
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He says the last part like it's a realization, but he'd really rather not freak Sylvie with an explanation that involves possible demonic possession so he quickly brushes past it, making a mental note to get in touch with Joel for more than just a protection spell for Sylvie later.
"As for why it didn't end well, Christ. Remember I told you she asked me on that date? We never went on it. I just-- I don't know, I said yes because it seemed fine at the time but my feelings for her aren't-- I can't--" He struggles to explain it, partly because it seems so strange to talk to Sylvie about something like this, but he tries because she'd asked, and he doesn't want to lie to her. "I just didn't want to create any false expectations, you know? And it's not like I don't think she can handle going on a date without feeling like there could be more there, but I thought maybe it would be better not to risk it at all. So it didn't happen and all these months have gone by, I figured it just wasn't a big deal anymore, but apparently I'm an asshole and totally dickless for not explicitly telling her that the date was off."
He throws his arms up in the air and lets them fall back down at his sides, shaking his head. "I don't know. I apologized but it wasn't enough and then she brought you up and--" Coop rolls his eyes, scrubbing a hand over his face as he lets out an irritated groan. "It was just a thing, we're not going to be braiding each other's hair anytime soon."
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Sylvie doesn't know a lot about the kind of guy and the kind of lifestyle Coop has created since they broke up. She's heard it, around town, but she's separate from it, and she's never heard it from him. She can't say she likes it, and she doesn't think it's entirely unreasonable to not be on board with the man she loves sleeping with everyone in Maine, but she also knows it's nothing to do with her anymore. She knows it's not to get back at her, and it's not something she could ever ask him to stop, so mostly she tries not to think about it much. She's pretty sure that Raleigh would want there to be something more, even if she wouldn't expect it, and she can't help but feel a little glad that the date never happened.
Her lips quirk into a smile when he mentions braiding hair, and then as if on a delay she realises he said Raleigh mentioned her. "Me?" It's not completely out of the ordinary if they were discussing Coop's romantic past, she supposes, but it still surprises her.
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"She was telling me that I'm selfish. That I only ever do what's best for me and that I don't give a shit about anyone else." Coop cringes at that because he's never thought that of himself but if that's how he's made her feel than maybe he's not as good a guy as he tries to be. It eats at him a little, no matter how out of sorts Raleigh might be right now, and he's not the type of guy to regularly second-guess himself when all he's tried to do over the years is be honest with people because keeping the secret of what he is from Sylvie had been the very goddamn thing that'd made her leave.
"She said that's why I kept it from you," he continues, his voice low now with an angry edge to it, "like I didn't care about you or how it might affect you, but the reason I didn't tell you until I did is because I cared--" He cuts himself off with another shake of his head. "Look, I know I should have been honest up front, but I was so far removed from home, from anywhere remotely magic-like, that I didn't think. If you ever felt like I didn't tell you because I didn't love you enough or value our relationship enough, just... just know that I'm sorry. I really am."
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"You're not selfish," she starts, because it's the obvious place. She wouldn't love him the way that she does if he was. They still haven't talked about this really, about why she left and what that did to both of them, and maybe it's time. "And I never thought that was why." His love for her was never something she doubted, and she hopes that he never doubted her, though with the way things ended she's sure he must have.
"If you ever felt like I left because I didn't love you enough..." She trails off, returning the sentiment. There's a wry smile on her lips but it's tentative, barely there. "I know this should be four years behind us Shea but it feels like it isn't."
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But no matter how hard he tries to convince himself that there's no reason to believe anything could ever exist between them again, Coop can't help but hope for it just a little.
"You know," he says, pausing to clear his throat, "I haven't had a significant relationship with anyone since you left. It's not that there wasn't anybody worth it, I just-- I didn't think it could be possible that I'd ever love someone like that again." He hadn't been wrong, he still hasn't met anyone who's inspired what Sylvie had made him feel every day they'd been together. "So I've dated around, nothing ever serious, but it always comes back down to you."
He rubs at the back of his head, letting out a sheepish laugh. "I never doubted that you loved me, but I'm sorry it wasn't enough. I'm sorry that whatever it is that really made you leave, I couldn't be there to help you through it. It's all I wanted, to be there for you, to love you." If he's honest with himself, he still wants that. He thinks he probably always will, in some way or another. "I want you to know that I'm here for you now, okay? For anything. Not just because of our history but because of the present, because I still-- I still care about you, no matter what."
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It kills her that he's so heartfelt about it, so ridiculously nice when she walked out on him. He's talking about never having anyone else, and she gets that, understands it perfectly. She can still remember Etienne's face when he'd asked her if she'd ever be able to really love him, the way he'd packed up his things and left without a word when she couldn't answer. She's never been able to feel that for anyone again, because she never stopped feeling it for Coop.
"I know," she says, and she does. The lengths he's gone to to make her feel safe already tell her that. Sylvie can't help the tear that slips out, and it's a combination of the things he's saying and knowing that it's time to tell him everything. She brushes it away quickly and bites her lip. "My father used to gamble, a lot." He knows this part, she's told him before. "He would sell anything to get out of debt. He sold my piano, he sold all my mother's jewellery... When I was 22, before I knew you, people came asking about him, wanting their money." She shrugs, runs a hand through her hair. "I told you you're not the first witch I've met. They... Used magic on me to make me tell them where he was, to hurt me. I gave them everything I had and then I ran."
She doesn't like thinking about it, remembering it, and she shudders. It feels kind of stupid talking about it now, so far removed, and she's not doing it for any other reason than that he needs to know she loved him more than anything, and that that's not why she left. "Anyway, I used to hear every now and then that they were still watching me. When you told me what you were... I was terrified that they'd find me, that I'd walked into it all over again." She hadn't known how many witches were around back then, just that he was one and so were they, and maybe they knew each other, maybe they'd find her through him.
"I always regretted leaving." She can't look at him, doesn't want to see his face.
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He's beginning to think that had never really stopped.
"Sylvie," he starts, trailing off after he says her name because he doesn't know what there it to even say. He hadn't known. He hadn't known. If he had, maybe he would have done things so much differently. Maybe he would have told her the truth about his powers from the start or maybe he would have abandoned them altogether and dedicated himself to a life of abstaining from anything related to witchcraft. For her, he would have done that without any questions asked.
"Je suis désolé, chérie. Si je l'avais connu... I would have kept you safe. I will keep you safe now, always, I promise."
She won't look at him, and that's what gets Coop standing. Kneeling at her feet, he brings his hand up to lift her chin, ducking his head to meet her gaze with a small, reassuring smile. "You know, when I first saw you, Christ... C'était le coup de foudre. When you left, I thought I'd never be whole again."
He hadn't been wrong, in a way; he still doesn't think anyone will ever capture his heart the way she had, and Coop doesn't know if there's anything that could exist between them again, if she'd even still want that or what it might mean to admit that he does, but he does know that he can be here for her now. Through the magic that scares her or anything else, he wants to be there.
"But you came back," he continues, his smile widening. "Don't regret that, okay? I would never want you to because having you here will always be better than thinking I'll never see you again."
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She should have told him earlier, she thinks. He's not the only one who kept a secret too long. Maybe if she'd come clean when they'd met he could have helped her, kept her safe like he's promising now. She'd always thought he would think her crazy, talking about magic and witches and all the time he knew it better than her.
"Shea," she starts, but she doesn't know how to finish. She wants to thank him, for protecting her, for being so understanding after everything, but she can't get the words out. She remembers the first time she'd met him, the way he'd laughed his way through the unfamiliar French words, trying to talk to her. With the way he speaks now it's almost hard to remember how he'd started out.
"I thought the same." She rubs a hand over her face and takes a breath. "I never was, but it's getting better. Being here."
At first he'd acted like he wanted her straight back on a plane, and she's surprised to hear him say that he wants her here now.
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It's different now. Something's changed, something he can't quite put his finger on but ultimately, he thinks that what he'd needed the most was time. There'd never really been any closure between them, not when things had ended the way they did, and it's not like he necessarily feels like things are all patched up between them now but at the very least, Coop can understand why she'd left. It hadn't been because she didn't love him or that she didn't want to marry him; she'd been afraid, and he knows how powerful fear can be.
"It shouldn't have taken us this long to talk about it," he says, reaching out to gently grasp her hand. The touch is just a touch, he doesn't want to imply anything or make her feel like she has to react to it a certain way, it's simply meant to be a comforting gesture between two people who are getting to know each other again. "I know it's my fault that it did, but I'm glad it's happened now. I know you came here because of Raleigh, but I-- I just want you to know that no matter what I've felt over the years, you never stopped being important to me."